I was at a memorial service when I saw a person that caused me to cringe. Feelings of resentment and bitterness filled my heart as I remembered and reflected upon the hurt that person had inflicted upon me in the past. It was at that very moment I realized I had a choice to make: I could either dwell and stew and baste in the bitterness of my soul (which is what I normally do!) or I could give God an opportunity to “sanctify” my life.
The word “sanctify” literally means to “set apart” or “make holy.” As followers of Jesus Christ, we are to become holy or “sanctified” as He is holy (1 Peter 1:16). The process of sanctification occurs as we turn over the control of our lives to the Lord, especially in the midst of our trials. More often than not, it is human nature to withdraw from God in the midst of trials. However, our turning to Him in our trial always leads to us to spiritual growth and maturity. Anyway, back to the story …
Gratefully, I chose to give God that opportunity to work in my life. I prayed, “Lord, you know how I feel about that person. You know what he did to me. What do you want me to do?”
After a short while, the Holy Spirit revealed the real issue to me. So I prayed: “Lord, the issue is not what that person did to me, but the sorry condition of my own heart. I have allowed bitterness and resentment to poison my heart. There is poison in my heart and I cannot love correctly or fully anymore. Will you remove the poison?” (pause.) I gulped, “Do whatever it takes, Lord.”
I braced myself for the worst. After all, taking poison out of a human heart is no easy task. I expected that God would give me greater trials; a refining fire to purge out the bitterness and resentment.
But at that very moment, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I opened my eyes and, very unexpectedly, I saw a dear Christian friend; someone I haven’t seen in over seven years! He smiled and winked at me. Then I realized that God answered my prayer rather immediately and miraculously. Timing was everything: if I had not just prayed that prayer, that simple interaction with my brother would have been just another pleasant reunion. But because I had just specifically given God the opportunity to work in my life, it was a HOLY moment! Unbeknownst to him, my dear friend was the conduit of God’s love being poured into me at full force – kind of like taking a drink from a fire hydrant! God’s love swept over me, filled me, and flushed the poison out of my heart. Wow! I was free to worship, I was free to minister, I was free to love… And yes, free even to love the one to whom I had once harbored so much bitterness.
To rephrase an old 60’s song: “all we are saying is give Christ a chance.” We have a million chances a day to give the Lord an opportunity to direct our lives – but how often do we? Every choice we make without God is a choice that leads to emptiness, shallowness and in many respects, death. Every choice we give to Jesus is an opportunity for life, real life, lasting life, “huge” life.
“In Him was life, and that life was the light of men” (John 1:4). It’s about time we started turning on that “light” switch more frequently … it leads to true life.
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Wow Doug, I truly enjoy your daily walk with Papa. What you said reminds me of the scripture verse Matthew 5:23 “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, 24 leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift. It is so hard to relinquish that bitterness at first, yet when we do there is such an overwhelming relief that we are finally free from that burden, Praise God!